The Time I Couldn't Switch Myself OFF, as an HSP | "Protection"
There's a part of me that unconsciously flips my heart's switch to "OFF" just to get through life.
When interacting with people, when entering a room — I think I've naturally built up this defense to protect myself.
But that one time, it was different.
While hospitalized, I lost consciousness from hyperventilating for the first time.
As a highly sensitive HSP, during my post-surgery recovery, I couldn't switch that "OFF" button on, and kept absorbing other people's emotions and words exactly as they were, until my heart reached its limit.
In the ICU, the words and attitudes of the nurses, even the relationships between the people around the hospital, came flooding in as if they were my own.
All I could do was take it all in, and during my post-surgery recovery,
my mind got pushed to its edge, I began hyperventilating, and lost consciousness.
The Unconscious "ON/OFF Switch" I Carry
Normally, I have a switch I unconsciously flip to "OFF" when interacting with people.
Keeping it off keeps other people's emotions from flowing into me more than necessary.
But while I was hospitalized, that switch stopped working.
People ended up misjudging their distance from me, unconsciously saying things they shouldn't, or baring their hearts to me.
After continuing to absorb all of that, I felt like I was about to break.
For an HSP, "Protecting Yourself" Is the Strength That Lets You Survive | Alongside the Scent of Protection
"It would be so much easier if I could just be less sensitive."
I can't count how many times I've thought that.
Living as an HSP, even ordinary, everyday moments can leave my heart unsettled by other people's words or the mood of a room.
That sensitivity can become both kindness, and exhaustion.
"Protection" Is an Invisible Boundary for the Heart
Among the HSP series scents FUUKA carries is "Protection."
This scent is blended around the image of drawing a boundary between yourself and the world around you.
The first time I used this scent, I felt, clearly, "I am protected."
Before my sensitive self could react too strongly to someone's words or presence,
giving myself one spritz of this scent let me create distance between my own emotions and other people's.
To You, With a Highly Sensitive Nature
If you're an HSP, or have a sensitive nature, and
・ feel completely drained after meeting people
・ find someone's words lingering in your mind indefinitely
・ sometimes lose track of your own feelings
try giving "Protection" a try when this happens.
This scent helps cut off outside influence, and helps you find your way back to yourself.
Don't Blame Yourself for Your Sensitivity
You don't need to change your sensitive nature.
What matters is knowing "how to protect yourself."
Protection has been a reassuring ally for me, in the process of learning exactly that.
If you've been feeling "a little tired" lately,
that might just be a sign it's time to protect yourself.
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